Fading Lights

I keep telling myself to make a Life Updates post one of these days, since I'm 99% sure I haven't posted since like, November. HAH NOT EVEN CLOSE - October 18th. But 'Drowning in Life' is still very appropriate. And Life and Work and Things are happening all over the place and I'm too busy to even write, and if that doesn't tell me that my life is out of order, I don't know what does.

So, let's start with a journal post.

( Work is craziness and awful and awesome and exhausting and challenging and craptastic and so many things all at once. )

( In other news, I have a new Health Issue: )

As for bigger news, ( my roommate/best friend/Heart-Sister Shi-chan is pregnant. )

-Yawns- I think my thoughts are finally winding down again ...

Shi-chan's birthday was today, and some friends took us out to dinner. They are FABULOUS people, and we all had a great time. These friends are an amazing couple that blow me away every time I see them. Like I'm being reminded once again just how much I genuinely like them both. They're the kind of couple that balance each other out: she ranted to us about her awful day, while he listened patiently and nodded along with occasional annoyed commentary on her behalf, and later she listened patently while he gushed at me me in great detail about a movie that I'd reminded him off and how much he loved the beer he'd ordered and half a dozen other things. They also share this fantastic ability to somehow energize the people around them. I'd been fighting a nap all afternoon, and after two and a half hours with them, I'm just now getting sleepy again, four hours later.

And he wore a kilt to dinner. With a T-shirt with a lionhead symbol on it. He's good people. ^_^

Watching them also made me think about my own romantic relationship, and just how happy I am in it. It was a lovely feeling. ♥

It still feels like there's so many fun and crazy stories I should be telling. Laughing hysterically at the carwash this morning because Shi-chan's car had been horribly bird-bombed the night before, and it was so bad the guys working there were laughing too and offered to run us through the automated system again. My new New Nintendo 3DS, in pretty sparkly deep red. My newest game, Story of Seasons, which is both beautiful and adorable and I have no idea WTF I'm doing. Seeing Star Wars: The Force Awakens with a co-worker and her husband and having an amazing time. (Finn is THE BESTEST and POE OMG POE and oh yes #ishipit.) My lovely and amazing girlfriend and her adorable kids that alternatively completely accept me in their lives despite having never met me and have no idea why I'm interested in their lives at all. Being SURROUNDED by pregnant women, like it's in season or something. (I'm at three, waiting for confirmation on a fourth.) Hunting down dragons for Shi-chan's baby theme because It's All Target's Fault. Discovering the wonderful show The Librarians and finding an interpretation of Santa Claus I have actually been able to not only accept and enjoy, but nearly been brought to tears by. Various Crazy Cat Antics because Things Are Changing and This Is Not Acceptable. Making DC Comic jokes at work and discovering people who actually get them. Being torn between wanting to write Charlie's Drama Story and wanting Antonio/Jayden cuteness and fluff. My intense hatred of Windows 10 and my fierce desire to see it burn in hellfire.

I suppose it's still life. And I'm still living it. Which leaves me feeling much better about things than I did when I started this post. ^.^

Bah.

Today is sick day.

Shi-chan has sick for the past few days. As always, we have valiantly tried to avoid sharing. As always, my lazy pathetic excuse for an immune system laughed in my face.*

Unfortunately after hours of reading Teen Wolf and Pacific Rim and Avengers fic - the reasons for these transitions now eluded me - I have come to the conclusion that I really, really, really want an Alpha/Beta/Omega 'verse Samurai story. The plot is even halfway written in my head.

( For the curious and/or horrified: )

Unfortunately everything I know about Alpha/Beta/Omega dynamics comes from reading Avengers and like, one Teen Wolf fic. And the idea trying to research it enough to write this kind of scares me almost as much as the idea of actually going ahead and writing it.

SOMEBODY TELL ME NO. FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS SPARKLY AND RAINBOWS TELL ME NOT TO DO THIS.

I should really stop plotting fic when I'm sick ...



* I have a slight fever, a headache, and a sore throat that feels like I swallowed broken glass. Mostly I'm just tired and cranky and whiny.

Things have been fairly dramatic this past week or so. I'm full of all sorts of FEELINGS and DRAMA at the moment, and I need to vent them somewhere before I explode.

( Lots of ranting/rambling/drama. Feel free to skip. )

Just a note to say that I'm still breathing. Haven't been feeling very social lately. Also spending almost two weeks now fighting with my body, which has staged some sort of rebellion. (Lots of weird symptoms, my arthritis starting to act up again, and the past couple days I've had dizziness and nausea to the point that I've had to sit or lay down before I pass out.)

So ... I'm around, checking updates and whatnot. My CampNano and queer_fest projects have been silently glaring at me and my lack of energy and inspiration, but I haven't forgotten them. Mostly I've spent a lot of time curled up in bed, sleeping or playing Final Fantasy VII on the PSP.

On the upside, I've never gotten this far in the game before.

Much love and sympathies to everyone who has been going through Issues recently. It seems like April's been a rough month for all of us.

♥ ♥ ♥

Feeling fairly miserable at the moment, due to post-physical therapy and some kind of random stomach bug I've been spontaneously struck with. It is NOT fun. >.< I'm medicating myself with Samurai fluff and BatFamily Fluff, because it cheers me up when I feel crappy.

On another note, I've been feeling kind of introspective since yesterday. Not depressed or anything; just ... thinking about roads not taken, I suppose.

Today I was asked a question that kind of touched on a similar topic, and I decided I wanted to keep what I'd ended up saying. Maybe it's because I'm still feeling introspective, but it feels like something I should keep in mind.

But, on a more philosophical note, I've become who I am now because I made that decision. A lot of bad things have happened because of it, but so did a lot of good things. And I'm stronger than I was before, in a lot of ways.

For me, it was the right choice in the end, I think. Because I've learned and experienced a lot. I can't say I would go back and do it again, but at the same time, I don't completely regret it.

I guess it boils down to deciding if you're willing to take a chance on something else. It won't necessarily be better, but you never know what you can miss out on if you don't take that risk.

It's been a long weekend.

( On Saturday Brother, his parents, and I finally got to see Les Miserables. )

Unfortunately the movie was the highlight of my weekend.

( More Random Health Issues Ahoy. )

( As for yesterday's physical therapy ... )

... And now that I've depressed myself, time for Megaforce Torture!

( Thoughts while watching Power Rangers Megaforce )

I don't ... *completely* hate it? I'll probably watch a couple more episodes to give it a real chance, but yeah. I haven't been that disappointed in a season in a *long* time. -Sighs-

In other news, still recovering from Friday's adventure. I mostly slept a lot today. My arm is swollen and sore, but other than some swelling in my throat, I seem to be all right. I'm worn out more than anything, and frustrated because I can't seem to focus. I start things and then get bored in like, five minutes. >.< I blame the drugs.

I'm currently torn between finding things to read, or catching up on more episodes of Samurai I haven't seen yet. Or Sims3. Possibly all of the above.


* ETA: I miss my Paint Shop Pro. I want to make Antonio & Rocky icons, but MSPaint does not cut it. ;_;

PainfulMRI was PAINFUL.

Basically I had to lay down on a board with a brace pinning down my shoulder so I wouldn't move it. Then Tech Guy had me turn my right arm so my hand was palm up (to show the tendons, he said), and proceeded to strap my arm down against my side in that position. I mean, I get *why* - he told me that arms are really hard to get a clear picture of, because they tend to move when you breathe - but OWOWOWOWOWOW. After it was over, I was blinking tears. It still hurts like hell; I'm trying not to use it much. And FREAKING OUT over what the results will be tomorrow. x.x

Instead I'm trying to cheer myself up with vids and fluff. Which is how I found this, which is awesome. ♥

In the meantime, suggestions/requests for Antonio/Jayden fluff would be most helpful. ^.^

It's been a busy few couple of weeks around here. And Brother's factory had a shutdown for the past week (which they do every so many months for cleaning), so he's been hogging his computer to play Eve and leaving me without internets. -Makes a face at him-

( Christmas was surprisingly pleasant. )

My best moment of getting present thought, would actually have to go to weesta by ( sheer shock value and moment of awesome.  )

The day after Christmas I had ( another physical therapy appointment. )

Brother's mom and I spent the rest of the day shopping after-Christmas sales, which was fun. I always enjoy spending time with her. ^_^ She even got me things! I finally have a decent sized coffee cup that says "Coffee and shoes take away the blues" (I don't care about shoes, but the coffee part is true), a box of cherry candy canes, and two pairs of earrings that look like poinsettias.

We planned on going to see The Hobbit that night, but after Brother and his dad drove to meet us, we found out they were completely sold out. x.x So we agreed to go the next morning instead.

( The Hobbit )

We spent New Year's Eve ( at home. )

Other movies seen over the last week included:

( Meet the Robinsons )

( Rise of the Guardians )

( The life of Pi )

Ironically the first of ( the last of my Christmas presents arrived today! )

Resolutions for the new year? Meh, not really. Possibly to continue my Word Count Goal of 1,000,000 words in a year. I made 56959 for 2012, which is ... incredibly pathetic. -_-;;; Getting my arm fixed so I can work again? Writing?

Really, I suppose I just resolve to hope for the the same things I wished rosabelle when she texted me Happy New Year. The same things I wish to all of you.



May it be filled with writing, love, and happiness. ♥

( So I know where the nearest hospital is now. )

So for now, I'm taking aleve and muscle relaxers, and sleeping a lot. Trying to stay hydrated. I'm not sure what else I *can* be doing, really. Except hope it goes away soon.