Fading Lights

Just a note to say that I'm still breathing. Haven't been feeling very social lately. Also spending almost two weeks now fighting with my body, which has staged some sort of rebellion. (Lots of weird symptoms, my arthritis starting to act up again, and the past couple days I've had dizziness and nausea to the point that I've had to sit or lay down before I pass out.)

So ... I'm around, checking updates and whatnot. My CampNano and queer_fest projects have been silently glaring at me and my lack of energy and inspiration, but I haven't forgotten them. Mostly I've spent a lot of time curled up in bed, sleeping or playing Final Fantasy VII on the PSP.

On the upside, I've never gotten this far in the game before.

Much love and sympathies to everyone who has been going through Issues recently. It seems like April's been a rough month for all of us.

♥ ♥ ♥

Today has been a day of ups and downs.

• Woke up too early
  
• Spent far too much time arguing with Final Fantasy VII.
  
• Ate coffee and a donut, and later another donut.
  
• Watched HGTV for awhile, which is both entertaining and depressing in equal measures.
  
• Learned that yet again, the local news station refuses to spent more than two minutes talking about the gay marriage debates.
  
• Was invited out to get dinner with Brother's mom since it's just the two of us in the house tonight.
  
• Ended up watching TV and eating by myself because she got a phone call.
  
• Discovered that while I FINALLY received $50 for my state taxes, I'm being charged $70 for my federal taxes which were confiscated by a previous debt. I ... have no idea what the hell I should do about it. >.<
  
• Found my inbox and Facebook flooded with supporters of equal marriage rights, while many of my Dreamwidth friends are upset about the debate.
  
• Learned from Brother's mom that her daughter-in-law's brothers got into an actual *fist fight* over marriage rights. Which even though I'm not exactly friends with these boys, hurts for reasons that are hard to put into words.
  
• Finally discovered the reason I keep getting Follower notices from Fanfiction.net on my one-shots: they have a new 'Follow/Favorite' button at the top of the page, which I suspect is their attempt at AO3's Kudos button. It's ... a very annoying way to implement a good idea. >.<
  
• Wanted to rant about All The Feelings I have on the marriage issue but had to reign it in a bit, because this is a very conservative family and I'm 90% sure that Brother is the only person in his family who actually supports gay marriage. Still kind of ended up saying more than I intended to (and probably should have). There wasn't any debate or discussion about it, but I got the impression we were on opposite sides.

But there were definite ups, too.

• Ranting and planning and talking with starlit_purple. ♥
  
• Brother's bird has been very quietly and sweetly chirping at me off and on tonight. (Since he often throws tantrums whenever I so much as stand in the room, this is a very nice change.)
  
• This video, which starlit_purple linked on Facebook, which is lovely. ♥
  
• Posts of love and happy things from punkpinkpower and starandrea, for everyone who needed something to make them happy today. ♥
  
• Clicking on one of the pictures starandrea linked and discovering this fabulous collage of win by sheer accident.
  
• A dish of rocky road ice cream.

I love my friends. You are all so amazing and wonderful and full of love. ♥

So, question internets:

Why does entering 'Mike/Kevin, Power Rangers' in a search of DeviantArt get me Mike and Emily icons?


ETA: Well DeviantArt, you did give me a kitten hugging a Yellow Ranger doll, so I guess I mostly forgive you.

The Great Flu Epidemic has finally began to leave our household. I had it for a good two weeks (And became somewhat addicted to NyQuil during the process it seems x.x), and Brother ended up staying home from work for about a week. Seeing as he plays games and watches anime on his computer while he's home, I haven't had internets until he went back to work today. So I watched movies, slept lots, and played Sims3 obsessively.

( Memes! )

Blegh. I'm still worn out being sick and today's doctor's appointment.* I'm also in the mood for some major Antonio/Jayden fluff, which I absolutely blame punkpinkpower and the e-mail alerts she gave me for. ♥



* On which note, I REALLY REALLY need some positive thoughts/energy/prayers for the next two days, that medical testing finds something wrong with my shoulder. Which sounds a bit masochistic, but if they find things, it means I'm not just being a wuss. So I REALLY REALLY REALLY need them to find things. -Anxious-

Akume: ... DUDE.
Akume: My Doll Divine site has options for picking what World you live in.
rosabelle: Ooh
rosabelle: What are the options?
Akume: Earth, Asgard, Dagoba System, Equestria, Middle Earth, Ministry of Magic, Narnia, United Federation of Planets, or Westeros.
rosabelle: Oooh
rosabelle: I like all those
Akume: I've decided I've moved to Narnia. :D

I've been on a Charmed kick again recently.

I blame Chris Perry/Halliwell. He's too damn pretty and full of angst. It makes me want to hurt people for him.

Somehow during all this reading of Chris fanfiction and browsing vids* and pictures, I had the sudden thought of Chris and Chibi-Usa from Sailormoon bonding over timetravel and meeting younger versions of their mothers who initially hate them. (I'm actually a little surprised I'd never made the connection before. o.O) And now it's kind of my Head Canon.

And then I started pondering how they could have met, and trying to remember what year Chris is supposed to be from. Which turned into the idea of Chibi-Usa being part of the resistance against EvilWyatt. Then I pondered other characters I love who are supposed to exist in the future and could have known Chris.

Now I'm picturing a post-apocalyptic resistance run by Chris Halliwell, Usagi Chiba, Alan Tracy, Lucas Wolenczak, Ben Braeden, Harry Potter's kids, and B Squad from Power Rangers SPD.

Run. Run now.

And for the love of fandom, DON'T encourage me. x.x




* I found this vid earlier today. It's everything about Supernatural that made me fall in love with it.

And to be honest, all the things I miss. -Glares at show-

Apologies to anyone who just got spammed with drug offers from my Yahoo e-mail. Fucking hackers. >.<+++

Looks like they might have gotten through from Fanfiction.net, too. Bastards.

Today, I woke up (Three times, thank you Sky. -Glares at now-sleeping kitten-) to Shi-chan watching Prince of Tennis. Again. This lead into role-playing while talking about the Anime and how adorably arrogant yet somewhat dorky Ryoma is.

Then I started reading Final Fantasy fanfiction, 'cause I left off on one yesterday and reading helps me wake up faster. From there, I wandered into Narnia fanfiction, taking a brief moment to browse a couple Peter/Edmund romance stories for reasons unknown even to me. There was another brief pause for some experimental cheesy-rice that turned out to be incredibly awesome, before finding some lovely Edmund Angst while pondering playing Final Fantasy VII some more without actually doing so.

( Current thoughts on Final Fantasy VII. )

Now I'm now re-reading my Chronicles of Narnia story Fragile Wings, after being inspired by the lovely Regrets, by MyBlueOblivion. I found myself writing Peter's surprisingly *almost* Anti-Aslan thoughts during the beginning of the story, and contemplating a Final Fantasy/Chronicles of Narnia crossover that ranges from serious and possibly angsty to deciding which FF VII characters would be their world's version of the Pevensies.

• Sephiroth the Magnificent. Because he is, even if he's sort of more like Edmund happening in reverse. (Edmund started off as a traitor then became good; Sephiroth was good and then went insane and killed people.) He'd be the leader, the strongest warrior, and the epitomy of nobility.


• Aerith the Gentle. Even though her personality is more like Lucy's, 'cause she's the type that informs Cloud she's coming with him and he gets to suck it up, and she's the one with the deeper connection to the 'higher powers' as it were. But honestly, that title wouldn't work for any of the guys.


• Cloud the Just. He's always saving/fighting people that he should really give up on. He's also the most emo of the group, so. ♥ And Cloud would never be able to lead Sephiroth or Zack on a mission. He's too intimidated by Sephiroth, and Zack would just pat him on the head after getting an order and wander off to do his own thing anyway.


• Zack the Valiant. He's bold, he's energetic, he's always making friends with everyone. He could *almost* be Peter, but he could also be the one with all the faith, while Sephiroth could ... not. So Zack gets Valiant. He always wanted to be a hero anyway.

I'm rambly today.

And after typing all this rambling up, I'm leaning more toward actually turning on the game again. I'm kind of wanting to hurry up and beat it so I can go play Crisis Core. (I have a thing about needing to play FF VII first; don't ask.) Mostly because ShinRa is starting to fascinate me, and I want to learn more about them. Which may actually lead to said Final Fantasy VII/Chronicles of Narnia crossover. And possibly Kingdom Hearts thrown in, because I had an interesting thought involving Denzel and/or Sora, and the idea of Cloud as any form of parent fills me with unholy glee.

Clearly my brain is in a very strange, random place. I don't know why that is, but hopefully good things will come from this. Or at least fun things, even if they're not actually *good*.

Me: -Attempts to eat sandwich-
Kitten: -Jumps up and lays across collarbone-
Me: -Looks down- "Hi there. Did you want something?"
Kitten: -Purrs-

Me: -Attempts not to get grape-flavored kitten-
Kitten: -Glares at lack of expected amount of Attentions and Pettings-
Me: -Gets grape-flavored-
Kitten: -Wanders off, annoyed with inattentive human-
Me: -Finishes sandwich and attempts to de-grape Everything That Is Not Kitten-

( SO the drama ... )

So between computer and moving issues, I'm not going to be available much for awhile. I can't say for sure how long, but hopefully it won't be *too* bad. And I'll still be checking updates and things; I just won't be around as often.

I promise to keep you all posted. And hey, if you're somewhere around Austin, let me know! I could use someone to show me around! ^_^

Much love! ♥