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Wednesday, February 19th, 2014 06:16 pm
Today in my training class my trainers took a moment to introduce us to the Memorial Guide.

There's several memorials in the game that leave tribute to someone. Former employees, deceased players, even a Make a Wish Foundation-made Quest. They're different things. One's just a jar of ashes with a description when you click on it. One is a large tomb for a deceased player, complete with that player's main character laid out on it, at rest with his sword on his chest. Some are things the company made, and some were requested by a players on behalf of someone else, such as the tomb.

The Memorial Guide itself is an online fan-made thing, but it's through a site that the company endorses and refers people to. There's a map of all known memorials throughout the game, and lists each of them. Each listing has the name, location, object or quest, and a short piece about the person it's for. There's even a request at the bottom asking for people to send in any memorials they've missed. A lot of the stories brought tears to my eyes.

It doesn't entirely make up for yesterday.

But it restored my faith in the company. Maybe they're not *all* assholes.
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Tuesday, February 18th, 2014 06:37 pm
Disclaimer: I love Gamers. Hardcore Gamers, Casual Gamers, people who only game once in awhile. I have friends on every end of the spectrum. I consider myself to be a Casual Gamer.

That being said, Gamers are assholes. )
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Tuesday, September 10th, 2013 11:09 pm
This has been a Bad Week. With Capital letters. There's been drama around the house, Issues all over the place, and today we learned really Bad News in regards to a relative's health.

So today, I took a Me Day. I dressed up in my fuzziest, warmest pjs, plopped my butt in a recliner, and apart from a short trip into town for Subway and icees, I've been playing video games all day. Harvest Moon, to be specific. Something that requires a lot of thought without actually thinking.

And now my battery is Dead.

By Dead (with capitals), I mean that it won't recognize the charger anymore. Which, since this is an original first-series DS I was given used from Brother, is really not a huge surprise. Logically speaking, it was bound to happen someday right? I mean, it's like eight years old.

Not so logically, I'm torn between screaming and crying right now.

Fuck you too, world.
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Sunday, July 21st, 2013 06:49 pm
I may have a new candidate for The Trip From Hell.

I was set to fly back to Idaho from Texas on Friday. I had my itinerary number, I knew all my flight info, stuff was packed, I was all set. Shi-chan took the day off from her second job and got a half-day for her first, so she and Awesome Co-worker were able to take me to the airport, as her car is still in the shop. No worries.

No worries until I landed in Phoenix. )

So the latest Trip From Hell is over. I feel like absolute crap and just walking up and down stairs leaves me needing to stop and sit down for a minute. My arms are still sore, I've had a headache since yesterday, I may have to toss a pair of blood-stained jeans, and my headphones had to be replaced. But damn it, I am FINALLY in Idaho again.
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Saturday, July 13th, 2013 09:47 pm
Things have been fairly dramatic this past week or so. I'm full of all sorts of FEELINGS and DRAMA at the moment, and I need to vent them somewhere before I explode.

Lots of ranting/rambling/drama. Feel free to skip. )
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Monday, April 29th, 2013 10:32 pm
Today has been filled with drama. Mostly tolerable drama, but holy crap it's been everywhere. o.O

Brother woke me up at 1:00pm to ask me to sit with the puppy while he went outside to rescue his parents' tarps for the garden. I had barely had five hours at this point due to insomnia and heartburn, so I was fairly groggy as he was explaining. Apparently we were in the process of the Windstorm From Hell today (50-60mph winds according to the news), and the intensity of it was very thunder-like, which is why the puppy was shaking and trying to burrow underneath me to hide.

The rest of the afternoon was spent achieving my three set goals for the day: shower, dishes, and taking out the trash. (I also defeated Diamond Weapon in FFVII, but that was a bonus.) It was fairly quiet otherwise.

Brother's mom came home around five, which is when all the drama began. )

Outside of the drama, most of my thoughts for today have been centered around Kim. Just thinking of her, missing her. No crying. I'm just ... sad, and introspective.
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Tuesday, April 2nd, 2013 04:41 pm
I was woken up from a sound sleep at 9:30 in the morning by a cranky text message that annoyed me enough to prevent me from going back to sleep. So I got up and made coffee, and spent an hour watching House Hunters and House Hunters International. It wasn't productive, and I spent most of my time glaring at the TV and bitching about people being too picky. I managed a shower, grabbed my laptop out of my room, and curled up in one of the living room recliners in hopes of doing something for Camp NaNo. (Current Wordcount for the day: 4.) It was ... less than successful.

So far the two highlights of my day have been discovering Wild Woman Sisterhood on Facebook, which posts lovely and inspirational pictures about having pride in yourself, focusing on the future instead of the past, and finding magic in the world. And [personal profile] sailorsol's adorable Ninja Cats, which made me giggle. ♥

I'm still mostly cranky, frustrated, and currently trying to hunt down music to help me get through my current scene. Specifically a battle-theme type of instrumental. Preferably Middle-Eastern sounding, but not required. Anyone have suggestions?
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Thursday, March 28th, 2013 10:42 pm
Today has been a day of ups and downs.
  • Woke up too early
  • Spent far too much time arguing with Final Fantasy VII.
  • Ate coffee and a donut, and later another donut.
  • Watched HGTV for awhile, which is both entertaining and depressing in equal measures.
  • Learned that yet again, the local news station refuses to spent more than two minutes talking about the gay marriage debates.
  • Was invited out to get dinner with Brother's mom since it's just the two of us in the house tonight.
  • Ended up watching TV and eating by myself because she got a phone call.
  • Discovered that while I FINALLY received $50 for my state taxes, I'm being charged $70 for my federal taxes which were confiscated by a previous debt. I ... have no idea what the hell I should do about it. >.<
  • Found my inbox and Facebook flooded with supporters of equal marriage rights, while many of my Dreamwidth friends are upset about the debate.
  • Learned from Brother's mom that her daughter-in-law's brothers got into an actual *fist fight* over marriage rights. Which even though I'm not exactly friends with these boys, hurts for reasons that are hard to put into words.
  • Finally discovered the reason I keep getting Follower notices from Fanfiction.net on my one-shots: they have a new 'Follow/Favorite' button at the top of the page, which I suspect is their attempt at AO3's Kudos button. It's ... a very annoying way to implement a good idea. >.<
  • Wanted to rant about All The Feelings I have on the marriage issue but had to reign it in a bit, because this is a very conservative family and I'm 90% sure that Brother is the only person in his family who actually supports gay marriage. Still kind of ended up saying more than I intended to (and probably should have). There wasn't any debate or discussion about it, but I got the impression we were on opposite sides.

But there were definite ups, too.
  • Ranting and planning and talking with [personal profile] starlit_purple. ♥
  • Brother's bird has been very quietly and sweetly chirping at me off and on tonight. (Since he often throws tantrums whenever I so much as stand in the room, this is a very nice change.)
  • This video, which [personal profile] starlit_purple linked on Facebook, which is lovely. ♥
  • Posts of love and happy things from [personal profile] punkpinkpower and [personal profile] starandrea, for everyone who needed something to make them happy today. ♥
  • Clicking on one of the pictures [personal profile] starandrea linked and discovering this fabulous collage of win by sheer accident.
  • A dish of rocky road ice cream.

I love my friends. You are all so amazing and wonderful and full of love. ♥
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Friday, November 16th, 2012 10:33 pm
Just saw Wreck-It Ralph for the second time, this time with Brother's parents. Random Wreck-It Ralph squee. )

Then I got home and checked my e-mail, where I found a review for Bright Skies that is both flame and compliment. I should ignore it. I *know* this. But honestly? Some of the comments they left *really* pissed me off. I'm glad they kind of like the story, but at the same time they insulted half of what makes Bright Skies .... Bright Skies.* I'm ... indignant, I guess. And a little offended.

I'd list some of the things that made me so angry here, but I'm trying to convince myself to take the path of least aggression. And trying to remind myself of how many people have told me they love it for exactly the same things this person was complaining about. I guess I'm so annoyed/irritated because Bright Skies is one of My Epic Babies as far as fanfiction goes, and I'm very protective of it. >.O And I've always been a bit sensitive about the few flames I *have* gotten, even if they're rare. -Is a baby-

... Oh. That explains it. This is the same person who commented on A Tale of Five Carsons. I thought that style of review seemed familiar.

On a lighter note, I found this on Twitter just before I posted. It's very heartening to read. ♥ Even if my NaNo has been stuck for a week and is so far behind it's highly unlikely I'll finish.

* When the author LISTS their pairings in the FIRST CHAPTER, this is considered a warning. DON'T READ THE STORY IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE PAIRING.
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Wednesday, October 17th, 2012 02:04 am
No, this time they really are. )

Technically I *can* work as long as I don't use my right arm for anything, but the agency decided to just have me rest it for a couple days instead. I have to make an appointment with the medical center to get it checked again on Friday. (They said come back in four days, but the agency said Friday namely because they're closed on weekends -Rolls eyes-) The real irony is that we only have work tonight and tomorrow, and then it's our four day weekend.

Mostly I'm just pissed off that again, THIRTEEN HOURS of pain before being told what's wrong. That was fucking ridiculous. I'm still in pain, but the sling does help a little. I'm trying to stick to mostly using my left arm, which is ... interesting. Also sleep is fun, seeing as I'm a side sleeper. x.x

* My shift supervisors are grudge-holding bitches. And I don't like them. )

** I so feel terrible for poor Brother, because we didn't get home after all this until after 2:00 in the afternoon, and he had to go in for work again at midnight tonight. x.x
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Thursday, October 4th, 2012 05:02 pm
So apparently it takes calling in sick to be able to post again.

I am ... somewhat employed. By which I mean that I'm working at one of the local potato factories by way of a temp agency. So I am *working*, but not necessarily permanently employed. Which is one of the many reasons I haven't been around lately.

I've been working at this place for just over two weeks now. We have a rotating schedule, which SUCKS, because it means I work a certain shift long enough to get my body adjusted to it, have a day off, and then work at a completely different time. (Currently, I'm working 4:00pm-12:00am.) The work itself is boring and monotinous, 'cause I spend a lot of time pulling rotten potatoes off a conveyorbelt. Or cleaning. Which really just means I have a lot of time to let my mind wander into dangerous areas.* Occasionally I do manage to plot stories, but it's hard to work on them when I only have breaks, 'cause I'm pretty exhausted by the time I get home.

Last week though, was The Week From Hell. Possibly even THE WEEK FROM HELL.

In which I rant. A lot. )

Sorry for the ranting to anyone brave enough to read it. I haven't really had a chance to vent yet, and I'm still pretty pissed. >.<

As for why I'm home today, I have a really bad head cold combined with nausea and cramps. I was trying to convince myself to go in anyway before the dizziness made me almost faceplant and I decided there was no way I'm working around heavy machinery like this. I'm thinking I either caught it from sister-in-law, or just from all the stress. Possibly the weather.

I'm going back to saving fanfics to my flashdrive so I can curl back up in my bed and read. I think I'm in another brotherly/family fluff mood, which is the only explanation I can come up with for why I'm looking at The Outsiders fanfiction. (I hated that book. >.O) I'm also browsing anything with Bruce Wayne and Dick Greyson (because Philippa is awesome and evil and addictive), and some Harry Potter. Maybe Harry Potter/Gundam Wing. Or Chonicles of Narnia. They have good fluff.

-Is babbling-

I miss you all SO MUCH and I love you! ♥

* My first day was spent trying to imagine what Zhane would do if he worked there. Which turned out to be complain about hairnets, and then somehow I had the mental image of him sticking forks into a pair of potatoes and making them do the can-can. Another day I was incredibly tired, and started plotting the Teenage Mutant Katate Potatoes, Villains of the Harvest. I decided on shapes, and was working on names and a theme song. (Yeah. IDEK. o.O)

** Never has this icon been more appropriate.
tsukino_akume: (Grieving Andros Icon)
Friday, September 7th, 2012 04:01 pm
This has been a bad week.

Potential place to live fell through, which made me a lot sadder than I expected to be. I hadn't realized how much I was looking forward to it - and I wasn't even the one doing the buying.

A friend of mine is about to be laid off. She's got time to try and find something else, but it's still upsetting to hear about. I know how much she loves what she does.

Adam has finally kicked the bucket. I knew it was coming, but it's now official: he blue-screened on me the night before last and has not been able to find his operating system since then. Various stories and other files have all been backed up in multiple places, so I haven't lost anything irreplaceable, thankfully. But Brother took a look at it and determined that for $200 I don't have I could fix him, but at that rate I might as well hold out for another $150 and just get a whole new computer. Not that I can really do *anything* about it until I have some form of income anyway.

Ironically Kim, my MP3 player, died less than a week before Adam did. So my phone is my only source of music for the moment.

Still can't find work. I've been applying everywhere I can think of, and Brother's mom has been suggesting everywhere *she* can think of, but no luck. Just a couple of pre-interview phone calls that nothing came of. Which means I can't do anything about anything until something comes up. >.<

So I've spent today playing Final Fantasy VII for awhile, and now I'm back to Harvest Moon while the PSP charges. Somewhere between killing things and various types of farming, I'm hoping to cheer myself up.
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Thursday, January 19th, 2012 10:38 am
Something about this song - awesome vid not withstanding - makes me think of Justin. Especially now that he's all grown up and .... yeah. Yet another song I'd love to see a PR vid to.

So ... I've been feeling a bit anti-social lately. Depressed, I suppose. I think more than anything I'm frustrated because I don't seem to be getting anywhere. At least, not where I *want* to be. I'm trying, but ... After awhile, it starts becoming harder to keep trying. Because there's only so much rejection and lack of progress a person can take. I'm not at the point of feeling truly hopeless - thankfully - but frustrated and worn. It's grating.

The past week or so in review, complete with babbling. )

Oh, and my paid LiveJournal account has finally expired. This only matters because I will miss my many icons. -Sulks- Dreamwidth is turning out to be better than I expected after my last experiment with it, but I still want more icons. And my Anime Faces mood theme. The kanji is nice, but not the same.

Today I plan to cheer myself up with mindless coding! Namely posting stories on AO3 and working on my website. (Coding is another 'zen' thing for me; I blame my inner graphic designer.) I also plan to stare at FtD and Cataclysm for awhile in hopes of thinking of ways I can torture people. That's always fun. Feeling Emo much? OF COURSE NOT.

* It is a strange but true fact that watching Bones makes me hungry. I have no idea why.
** I want someone to write me a fic where Hannah and Brennan are teasing Booth about having a threesome. Initially I was all for an actual threesome, but now that I know Booth's VERY Catholic and would never go for it, I'm more entertained by the thought of the girls tormenting him while he's horrified by the idea.
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Sunday, June 28th, 2009 10:41 pm
My first attempt at posting to Dreamwidth, because I finally remembered that [personal profile] rosabelle invited me like ... a month ago. And [personal profile] starandrea offered to invite me before that, but I was too scared to attempt it.

So far I'm confused and I don't know if I like this, which says nothing about how I'll feel about it in the future.

Now how the heck do I cross post between journals ... ? o.O

... I think that was it.